A green I do NOT heart.

And that would be green with envy. In the past few days I’ve been growing more and more jealous of the people I know. I don’t understand why, since it goes against all logic right now. Oh man, I hope Bill doesn’t read this…

I’ve been feeling some baby envy festering the past few days. Just about everyone I know is expecting at some point this year, and I’m starting to feel left out.

I just don’t get it! I can barely deal with the two I have, why the hell would I want another one? It’s almost like I have suppressed the memories of the massive weight gain, lack of sleep because I’m so big, then lack of sleep because of late night feedings. Oh and how could I ever forget the epidural running out just as I’m ready to squeeze the kid out. That was FUN!

Then there’s the expense of another one. Diapers, formula, then food, clothes, furniture, “gear”. These kids are expensive! Oh, and did I mention, the bigger house we’d need to buy? We’re not fitting another kid in this 3 bedroom townhouse.

So why am I so jealous of these friends of mine? Why does the thought of all my friend’s having babies make me want to throw my sanity to the wind and have another? It’s not like I have ever been (or probably ever will be) one of those cute, glowing pregnant women. I’ve never had what I would call a good experience being pregnant. For me, it’s a miserable time of being fat, uncomfortable, dead tired and just plain sick.

Quick, someone give me something else to think about! HELP ME! I need to get over my baby envy before I do something crazy.

To all my pregger friends out there, I am so happy for each and every one of you and if you need anything, don’t hesitate to ask.

Stay “Safe”!