It’s hard to believe it’s that time again, time to put the kids on the bus and have my days free from playing Cruise Director and breaking up fights. I’ve been ready for the new school year for weeks now, I thrive on routine and I never seemed to find one this summer.

Last summer was rough on all of us; me stuck on the couch for most of it, the kids stuck in the house and Bill trying to take care of it all while running his fledgling company.

In comparison, this summer kicked ass!

We spent a lot of time down in Maryland soaking in the sun and fun on the Chesapeake. The boys swam in the ocean for the first time. We got a dog. This summer ROCKED!

But the school year is here and the boys are now walking into school as first and fourth graders. Um, how am I old enough to have a first and fourth grader?

They said they weren’t excited but I could tell by the looks on their faces (and the early wakeup) that they are ready to roll.

Even though I’m excited for the school year to begin I miss them. I’m sitting here wondering what they’re doing and if they’re OK? Have they reunited with their friends? Will Cameron look after his little brother?

I will be at the bus stop (with Cooper) anxiously awaiting the stories from the day.

Have you sent your little people back to school yet?

Today is a bittersweet day for me, I’m sad and excited at the same time. For almost six years Logan has been my sidekick, my snuggly baby boy.

Today I put him on the bus for Kindergarten…FULL DAY Kindergarten.

I’m so excited that he’s entering this next stage of his life and I can tell he’s excited too. I’m also not really ready to let him go, he’s my little guy, he can’t be going to school already. Who is going to make weekly Costco runs with me and sit in the cart munching on a hotdog (and samples) while I shop? Who is going to hold my hand in the parking lot at Target? Who’s going to sing along to all my favorite songs with me? And help me get the housework done?

Since Logan came into this world Cameron has had school, first preschool and then three years ago elementary school, so we’ve had lots of time just the two of us. It’s hard to believe that time has come to an end.

Making this transition even harder is the fact that Bill is away on business. I really could have used his shoulder to sob on this morning, oh and to help me make sure I get all the important photos. I know he’s disappointed he couldn’t be here too but hey, the bills need to get paid.

So here I sit, going through his day in my head, wondering what he’s doing and how he’s enjoying his day. I’m sure the rest of the day will go at a snails pace as I await the return of the school bus. I’m sitting here at my desk and the house is just too quiet.

I just know I’m going to miss him much more than he’ll miss me and I’m OK with that. Logan will be too busy having fun at school to miss his mommy.

How did you handle sending your little one’s off to school for the first time? Do you have any back to school traditions?