Manic Monday

So here I sit, I’ve been derailed yet again. Since I’ve skipped the past week worth of blogging, I figured it wouldn’t hurt to skip Money Saving Monday to talk a little bit about me.

Let me give you a little taste of what seems to have thrown me off the wagon this time. My little mini vacation for my birthday weekend ended with two sick children, which turned into one sick mama. That is the reason for my absence all last week; I spent the first part of the week nursing two sick little boys, and the second half so sick I couldn’t get out of bed myself. In that time, my house has become a disaster area worthy aid from FEMA.

But two sick kids, a sick mommy, and a messy house are only part of my problem. I think I’m going through some kind of 1/3 life crisis. I know it sounds nuts, but I’m really struggling with my most resent birthday.

Here I am, 30 years old, and what do I have to show for myself? Alright, I know I have the obvious, I have an amazing husband, and two adorable little boys. I have great parents. I have a roof over my head, even though I’m not too terribly fond of it. I drive a nice car (but I do have family in the car business).

I don’t want to sound like I’m complaining, but I feel like I’m missing something, a vital piece of the puzzle, me. I’m a wife. I’m a mother. But somewhere in time I lost Mychal. (For those who don’t know, that’s my name)

I haven’t seen the world. He’ll, I haven’t even seen some of the amazing places our great nation has to offer. There are places I want to go, things I want to see and I fear I’ll never make it to any of them.

I need some kind of change, I’m feeling restless. I need to start getting out more…sans children. I need to get some resemblance of who I used to be back. I just don’t know where to start.

Have any of you gone through any of this? How did you deal? I’m cruising in uncharted territory here and could use some help.

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