Thanks facebook!

I’ve been hearing about these facebook disorders on the news for the past few weeks. Every time I would hear a story was coming about “facebook depression” I would roll my eyes and find something else to do. I am beginning to think that there might actually be something to this though.

The other night I had an experience that brought me right back to my high school days. Anxiety and insecurity coursing through my veins.

While mindlessly cruising through facebook I noticed that a familiar face appeared in the “people you might know” area. But wait! I thought I was already friends with her?!? Was I unfriended?

I’m not sure what’s more disturbing, the fact that someone had unfriended me or the fact that “unfriended” is recognized as an actual word.

Anyway, back to the story.

When I saw my former friend, I clicked to see who else had unfriended me. I found 5 or 6 more, and with each one I found I sank deeper and deeper into my couch. What had I done to make these people unfriend me? Why don’t they like me anymore? Oh my God, I’m a loser with no friends!

Before the other night I was already starting to feel a little down thanks to facebook. I’ve been reading a lot of sappy comments made by my fellow mommy friends. Comments like, “Isn’t motherhood wonderful?” have been hitting me the hardest. I must be doing something wrong because I find motherhood as a hard, thankless job, that on most days, leaves me not only unshowered but feeling like I’m one step away from a breakdown. Don’t get me wrong, I love my boys, but being a mother is not the hearts and flowers I thought it would be. Add to those comments the comments about how lovey and cuddly their kids are, when my kids are about as cuddly as a cactus and I’m ready to run away.

I can’t be the only one whose kids sometimes act like they were raised by a pack of wolves. Can I ? Am I the only one isn’t always blissfully happy about my role as mother? Surely there are others out there, maybe they’re just not on facebook. Maybe they think that the rest of us have it pulled together, so they say nothing of their struggles with motherhood. I wish some of you would come forward and tell your tales so the rest of us can feel a little better knowing we’re not alone.

Thanks Mark for being socially inept and creating a whole new reason for the rest of us to feel insecure!

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