Missing Mommyland

25 Apr

You’d never guess it by stopping by this site but My Life In Mommyland is one of my great loves. I’ve been writing this blog for nearly five years and I really enjoy the things I share here. It helps me to share my stories and I’m hopeful that some of the stories I’ve shared have helped others.

The problem?

This website takes a backseat to everything else in my life. The kids and husband, which should be pretty understandable. The housework because it stresses me out when things get too out of control around here. My part time job since I have to be there. Other projects I participate in, and while I try to incorporate my other projects here some of them don’t really belong here. I’m sure you’re all dying to know the mundane things I work on for other people. No? I didn’t think so.

Even when I have the free time to sit down and share a story there are some times when I just can’t bring myself to sit at my desk or squint at my laptop.

My other problem is that I’ve been struggling just to string a sentence together lately. I have interesting stories to tell you and I have them all beautifully written in my head, but when it comes down to putting my fingers on the keyboard everything feels so forced. Maybe I’m in a slump or a funk or perhaps my children have fried my brain, either way I’m struggling.

Lately I’ve even had thoughts of throwing in the towel all together. I’ve asked myself why I even keep this blog when I’m sure with all my inconsistency I have about five loyal readers. I’ve asked myself what the point of My Life In Mommyland is and that’s a question I’ve been asking for close to five years now.

Then the other side of the coin comes into play. When I do get the opportunity to say something I enjoy it. I enjoy sharing with you (my five loyal readers). Does it really matter that I don’t have a million page views a month? Not really, I gave up the notion of making a career out of this blogging thing a long time ago. I tell myself that maybe one person is affected by what I have to say in some way. Maybe someone isn’t going to give up because they saw that I pushed through and hell if I can do something anyone can. Maybe someone found something that makes their life easier because I told them about something I like.

If I only reach one person I’m OK with that.

Truly I’ve haven’t made up my mind as to whether I’ll carry on or shut it all down and I don’t know if I’ll ever really decide. My Life In Mommyland has been a part of my life for so long that it’ll never be an easy decision to make.

I hope that you’ll keep coming back and I’d love to know if there’s anything you’d like to read about here? Maybe you can be my inspiration to carry on.

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