Today is a bittersweet day for me, I’m sad and excited at the same time. For almost six years Logan has been my sidekick, my snuggly baby boy.

Today I put him on the bus for Kindergarten…FULL DAY Kindergarten.

I’m so excited that he’s entering this next stage of his life and I can tell he’s excited too. I’m also not really ready to let him go, he’s my little guy, he can’t be going to school already. Who is going to make weekly Costco runs with me and sit in the cart munching on a hotdog (and samples) while I shop? Who is going to hold my hand in the parking lot at Target? Who’s going to sing along to all my favorite songs with me? And help me get the housework done?

Since Logan came into this world Cameron has had school, first preschool and then three years ago elementary school, so we’ve had lots of time just the two of us. It’s hard to believe that time has come to an end.

Making this transition even harder is the fact that Bill is away on business. I really could have used his shoulder to sob on this morning, oh and to help me make sure I get all the important photos. I know he’s disappointed he couldn’t be here too but hey, the bills need to get paid.

So here I sit, going through his day in my head, wondering what he’s doing and how he’s enjoying his day. I’m sure the rest of the day will go at a snails pace as I await the return of the school bus. I’m sitting here at my desk and the house is just too quiet.

I just know I’m going to miss him much more than he’ll miss me and I’m OK with that. Logan will be too busy having fun at school to miss his mommy.

How did you handle sending your little one’s off to school for the first time? Do you have any back to school traditions?

Something kind of big happened last Friday, Logan had his last day of preschool. In the fall he will be moving on to Kindergarten, thus an era has ended here in Mommyland. My kids are school aged, there are no more preschoolers and probably never will be again.

Logan’s first day of Preschool (nearly 3 years old)

I look at the photo above and I wonder how this happened? Logan is my little guy, how can he be finishing his time as a preschooler?

But then I think back to the little boy you see above and I look at the little boy before me and I am astonished at how much he’s grown. That little boy you see up there was still in diapers and he still slept in a crib. The little boy living in my house now snores like an old man in his big bed and the diapers are long gone. He can write his own name, he knows his address and phone number and can color inside the lines.

There are things that haven’t changed though, I’m still his best friend and he still loves to give unsolicited hugs and cuddles. Man I hope that never changes.

Sure his big brother came before him as a preschool graduate but it’s different now. We spent five years inside Calvary Lutheran Preschool, the teachers feel like family. They have become the loving aunts who looked after and taught my boys so many important and interesting things. The realization that I will probably not see any of them ever again is heartbreaking.

Some other things that have become dear to my heart are disappearing too. There will be no more homemade birthday treats to bring to school (our school district doesn’t allow it), no more Christmas shows, no more Mother’s Day Tea. Our twenty minute drives to school where we chat and sing will be replaced by a walk down the driveway to put him on the bus with his brother.

It’s bittersweet as we close out this chapter in our family’s story and get ready to start a new one. I know there are so many wonderful memories to be made and I’m very much looking forward to them all but I will always look back at these past few years with a fondness. Our family has changed so much but at the same time we’re still the same.

Good bye preschool, and thank you for the memories.

Logan’s last day of preschool (5 and a half years old)